Wednesday, February 4, 2009

but it hurts...

Romans 5: 1 - 5
1 Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, 2 through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. 3 Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4 perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5 And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.

I have been saved, but not from painful experiences, or sad things. I have been saved from the pit of Hell, and an eternity without the love of Christ. I have been saved so that others may know Him, and so that I may anthem His glory with my life...

I have a hope and a future, and many good things are headed my way. But, that does not mean that I will not face trials, and that bad things won’t happen to me. Christ is not only all knowing, and completely loving...but He is totally just - - without any bias towards those whom He has saved.

I rejoice for my salvation is complete and can never be questioned. I rejoice because God has called me to be His own, and to share Him with others. I rejoice because He loves me and has a marvelous plan for me.

Here is where I get fuzzy though... If He has this great plan, why I am so ‘out of the loop,’ why is it that I cannot see even the glimmer of the edge of the plan? Is it because my heart could not take the knowledge? Is it because He wants to keep me protected? Or, is it because His best plan for me isn’t what I think is best for me? Is it a test of faith? Is it love like no other – guarding my heart from it’s worst enemy – me?!?

‘...we rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us...’

It is refreshing, and I take great joy in knowing that I am not alone in this journey. It is a blessing to have been given the gift of a godly husband to travel this way with... and though my heart is full of sadness and my womb an empty vessel, I will praise the Lord for He is timely and He is wise...and I will strive to love Him as He loves me... without question...

rejoice - feel or show great joy. triumph.
triumph - dwell on with satisfaction. the exultation of victory.
persevere - persist. continue.

1 comment:

BrightHaven Becca said...

Sometimes, when I'm facing something I totally can't understand and that is so painful, I compare it to something I have come through and how the present is so different from what I ever could have expected. That helps me some.