Well, I took the fertility pills last month... Then on Monday I got my period. Alas, no baby this month either... *sigh* I am feeling a bit down, well, 'a bit' doesn't really encompass my heart right now. I'm actually not sure how I feel. I truly believe God has called me to be a momma...and I know my heart cry is to birth babies and raise them up to love Jesus... I don't understand why it's so hard for some, and then so easy for others (some of whom don't even want little sweethearts to adore -- but that's a tangent I will not jump on for now)... I am just hurting now... so forgive me for not having anything insightful to say... I certainly don't feel strong enough for this challenge from the Lord...
and that statement "God will never give you more than you can handle." What a crock...He loads it on so we are FORCED to lean ... lean into Him. I get it...I never wanted to do it on my own... just take it away... please Father... I am so weak and so tired... and so broken...
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I know my Father is loving and I know He desires good for me... I just wish with all of my being it didn't hurt so terribly much to learn the things He teaches...
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mmm...that's good.
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