I am excited that this is day 29. I've blogged for 28 days straight and today will be #29. I wish there had been more posts about inside things. You know, the ones in your heart. But, I have enjoyed this 'experiment'.
So, onward, Day 29 - hopes,dreams and plans for the next 365 days
This is a big loaded question for me. I used to be a planner. I mean, down to the hour, the minute sometimes. I planned to be a famous singer, and then I planned to be a busy career woman, and then I planned to be married young with a large house full of children.
I am not a famous singer, but I do passionately sing for Jesus whenever I'm given the chance.
I was a busy career woman, and I made some great friends - but I'm not sure that is what I was crafted for...
I did not marry young, well, not young in my mind. I was 26 when I got hitched! Having said congrats to most of my girlfriends a year or two earlier.
And I do not have a large house full of children. I have instead, a large heart filled with two angel boys who didn't get to stay here.
A hope for the next year -- I hope that I know who I am and what I am "about." I hope that my husband and I can be closer in a year than we are today, and that in a year we will be more trusting of each other. I hope that in a year I'll be so wrapped up in Jesus that I won't recognize the old me anymore.
A dream for the next year -- I dream of children. I sometimes hesitate to say it, write it, whatever... I don't want to seem so consumed by the want for children. But the fact is, I am. Being a mother - that is what I am here for, and I know it deep (way down) in my soul. Every part of me aches for the babies I will never again hold on this earth, and every part of me cries out for more. I dream of my children, the ones we don't yet know and the ones who just might not look like us at all.
A plan for the next year -- I don't make plans anymore.