We've come so far

and yet it feels as if we still have so far to go...  But, I am smiling at the notion that soon we will have our son home with us, and this time...he will be alive.  Beaming...not smiling...beaming.  I have tried to keep myself from being overjoyed at the thought of Noah coming home, but the bigger I get, and the bigger he gets...and the closer we get to Monday (cerclage removal day) I find that I am unable to contain my jubilation.

I had my cerclage placed on January 31, 2011, and in two days, July 11, 2011, I'll have it removed.  I spent a lot of time in bed, and on the couch.  I spent a lot of time alone with God & Noah during this pregnancy.  I know a lot of people are miserable when they hear they are 'sentenced' to bed rest...but truthfully - it has been incredible.  Sure, it wasn't always what I wanted to be doing...but I also didn't want to bury another baby.  It wasn't always the most comfortable, but neither is explaining that you are no longer pregnant for the billionth time.  Sorry, coming down from soap box now...  I guess I'm just saying, there are worse things than being told to stay in bed due to being pregnant! 

Anyhow, I am so excited about Monday's procedure.  I am a little anxious because I'll have to be hooked up to an IV and receive a spinal.  Lots of people just go in and have the stitch removed at a regular OB appointment, but because my doctor does them so high & tight I will have to be put under!  And, as you may recall...I HATE needles...but I am a tough momma & I can do anything that gets my sweet one here!!  Grrrrr!!!  Heehee.

Seriously though, we have been so blessed and so fortunate throughout this entire experience.  All the pain, all the grief, all the hope deferred has led us to this point, and we realize and are truly humbled by just how blessed we are in every aspect of this journey.  The Lord has indeed been good to us.

 Psalm 13

For the director of music.

A psalm of David. 

¹How long, O LORD? 

Will You forget me for ever?
How long will You hide Your face from me?
²How long must I wrestle with my thoughts
and every day have sorrow in my heart?
How long will my enemy triumph over me?

³Look on me and answer, O LORD my God.
Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death;
⁴my enemy will say, "I have overcome him,"
and my foes will rejoice when I fall.

⁵But I trust in Your unfailing love;
my heart rejoices in Your salvation.
⁶I will sing to the LORD, 

for He has been good to me.