This Thursday will be 4 months since Rowan left us. We are dealing with the sadness of our baby's passing in such different ways... I often wonder if there is any of the 'oldness' of us left over. Not in a bad way. Like, I don't mean our marriage is 'on the rocks' or anything. I just look at Mattie and I don't see the same person, and I know I'm not the same person. I cannot help but wonder, and hope, that this time next year we have a small one cooing and laughing with us around our Christmas tree. So much can happen in such a short time.
We celebrate with friends this week the announcement of a positive!! We are jealous, and we covet that feeling of newness. But, we have hope that our time will come soon. Long have these friends waited, and we are truly happy for them. :0)
Merry Christmas.
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Tomorrow is my one year mark for precious baby loss number two. Life is not the same. I don't think it ever will be. Some changes are definitely for the better. Some, not so much. Both of my sisters-in-law are expecting. What a blessing to them...for our family. And I have been blessed with three healthy children. Still. It's there.
Praying right along with you, for the twinkling of Christmas tree lights in the eyes of a precious little one this time next year. I have faith that you'll be blessed. :0)
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