One Year - Levi Matthew

One year ago, on June 28, 2010, I went into labor with my second child.  Levi.

On June 14, 2010, I went in to see my OB to find out the sex of our precious baby.  It was a boy.  And, then, just like all my other appointments, I was having my cervix measured - only it was too short - far too short.  So, I was rushed to the hospital for an emergency cerclage to sew the cervix shut, and save my son.  But, alas, that was not the grand plan for this part of our journey, and after being put under anesthesia, my water broke at only 17 weeks pregnant.  I then put myself on bed rest for 2 weeks, and on June 28th around noon I began having strong contractions.  We went to the OB and I asked to be admitted to the hospital...she agreed and by 2 p.m. I was in the labor & delivery room where I would meet my son.

At 11:46 p.m. on June 28th Levi Matthew came silently (although quite alive) into our world.  He was breathtaking.  I could not stop staring at him, memorizing every inch of this amazing one, so precious, and so fresh. 

He grabbed my finger, I watched him try to breath, and then I watched in amazement as his little heart beat for over an hour.  AN HOUR.  He crossed into Heaven at 1:05 AM on June 29, 2010.  But, the doctor's said he wouldn't survive the birth - they were wrong - he was a hero.  A warrior boy.  We showered him in our love, and I gave him a million kisses.  He is my heart beat, my beautiful son.  My Levi. 

My heart is forever broken at the loss of him.  But, I look forward to seeing him again on that great day...I know he will be waiting for us inside the gates of Heaven, and I long for the chance to hold him.  My life has been forever altered by his tiny life, and I pray that I never forget what it felt like to have him and love him...if only ever so briefly.