Tuesday, June 28, 2011

One Year - Levi Matthew

One year ago, on June 28, 2010, I went into labor with my second child.  Levi.


On June 14, 2010, I went in to see my OB to find out the sex of our precious baby.  It was a boy.  And, then, just like all my other appointments, I was having my cervix measured - only it was too short - far too short.  So, I was rushed to the hospital for an emergency cerclage to sew the cervix shut, and save my son.  But, alas, that was not the grand plan for this part of our journey, and after being put under anesthesia, my water broke at only 17 weeks pregnant.  I then put myself on bed rest for 2 weeks, and on June 28th around noon I began having strong contractions.  We went to the OB and I asked to be admitted to the hospital...she agreed and by 2 p.m. I was in the labor & delivery room where I would meet my son.

At 11:46 p.m. on June 28th Levi Matthew came silently (although quite alive) into our world.  He was breathtaking.  I could not stop staring at him, memorizing every inch of this amazing one, so precious, and so fresh. 
He grabbed my finger, I watched him try to breath, and then I watched in amazement as his little heart beat for over an hour.  AN HOUR.  He crossed into Heaven at 1:05 AM on June 29, 2010.  But, the doctor's said he wouldn't survive the birth - they were wrong - he was a hero.  A warrior boy.  We showered him in our love, and I gave him a million kisses.  He is my heart beat, my beautiful son.  My Levi. 

My heart is forever broken at the loss of him.  But, I look forward to seeing him again on that great day...I know he will be waiting for us inside the gates of Heaven, and I long for the chance to hold him.  My life has been forever altered by his tiny life, and I pray that I never forget what it felt like to have him and love him...if only ever so briefly.

7 comments:

Alissa said...

Happy heavenly birthday to your little Levi. Know that he is remembered and loved always. Sending peaceful thoughts and prayers your way. ((big hugs))

Matushka Anna said...

Thank you for the beautiful photographs of Levi. He was a much-loved baby; that is obvious. (((Hugs))) on such a difficult day. I hope the sweet memories outweigh the sorrow.

May his memory be eternal!

Patty said...

You have beautiful pics of your children. Levi was so perfect; a perfect creation.

Kelly said...

You and precious Levi are in my thoughts and prayers today.

Becky said...

beautiful pictures of your sweet boy. He will always be remembered.
Thinking of you...

Krystle said...

He is pure perfection. I think it's great you have these photos, and that you are not afraid to show them.
I'm sorry for your loss.
Happy Birthday Levi!

Sherri said...

Thinking of you today... wishing Levi was here with you today in more than spirit. He was such a beautiful baby!