I have helped plan & been to 5 baby showers since last Wednesday. Five.
Of course, four of those were at one time! :)
I really, really, really want to have another baby. We have been trying since Noah was about 18 months old (he will be 3 in July) ..but I haven't been back on fertility meds, etc.... I just really, really, really wanted it to happen naturally.
It feels like a metal baseball bat to the stomach every month that I'm not pregnant, every time someone else tell me they ARE pregnant...and every time I stop to realize that my body just can't/won't/doesn't do what it's meant to do... Why do you think that is?
And, while we are on the topic - why do people find it necessary to say things like "isn't it time you had another?" "you're not getting any younger." "noah needs a play mate, don't you want another baby?" What --- you don't know me --- this is what I really want to scream...but I politely smile & nod.
And, in the last week I meet a woman who told me that she went the entire pregnancy not knowing she was preggo...went to ER with stomach cramping & back pain -- left with a baby. Oy vey!!
**My friends who are pregnant - I love you & this is nothing against you or your "condition" heehee -- I am just stuck in my feelings today & wanted to share a
2 comments:
Same with us. Been trying since 5months after Evan (he's 4 in June!). He and Julia happened naturally, we've never tried assistance, and I just don't want to try assistance of any sort. There's only so much room in my head to obsess over things and I've no more room left. :p
I wanted to be that woman too, and to be on "I didn't know I was pregnant". How much I envied leaving with an unexpected baby from the ER!
Why not go back on the fertility meds? it will speed things up maybe?
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